It’s Not You That Needs to Die — It’s the Life That’s Killing You
When the pain feels unbearable, it’s not your end — it’s your invitation.
Let’s get real.
Most people who say they want to end it don’t actually want to die.
They want the pain to stop.
They want the suffocating version of life they’re living to finally be over.
The survival loop. The disconnection. The ache that doesn’t quit. The reality that doesn’t reflect who they truly are.
It’s not you you’re trying to kill —
it’s the life that’s been killing you.
I remember my moment.
I was cut off from my children — suddenly, completely, with no way to reach them except a phone that barely rang.
I was still breathing, but I wasn’t alive.
The grief was unbearable. The silence? Deafening. I didn't know a life outside of my children. I didn't know what to do with myself. I had been raising babies since I was 18 and here I was at 43, traumatized and devastated. The pain didn’t just break me — it tried to erase me.
For a moment, I thought maybe the only way out of the pain was to unplug.
Just... disappear. It weighed so heavily in my heart.
But something innate and fierce in me rose up and said:
"No. This is not the end. You are a fighter. Not a quitter."
That was the moment I began again.
Not because anything outside of me changed — but because I did.
From a regenerative lens, that desire to die is never about death.
It’s the body, the soul, the nervous system screaming for release.
It’s trauma trying to evacuate.
It’s emotional toxins rising to the surface.
It’s cellular overwhelm.
It’s blocked energy demanding to flow.
It’s your spirit rejecting a life that doesn’t match your truth anymore.
That voice that says, “end it” may be the enemy —
but it’s also an invitation from your higher self.
The call to break the illusion. To rise. To transmute.
There is always light in the darkness — remember that.
You don’t need to check out.
You need to check in — to your truth, your body, your power, your path.
You are not your trauma.
You are not your past.
You are not your pain.
You are an electrical, light-filled, sovereign being —
and you have the power to regenerate.
Let the life that doesn’t serve you die.
Mourn it. Burn it. Bury it.
And then get to work building the life that does.
